The One That Got Away
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Two years together.
Twenty years apart.
One day to change their story.
2000. Benjamin’s world is turned upside down the night he meets Clara. Instinctively, he knows that they are meant for each other, but a devastating mistake on their last night at university will take their lives in very different directions.
20 years later, Clara has a high-profile job and a handsome husband. But despite the trappings of success, she isn't happy, and she knows that a piece of her heart still belongs to Benjamin, the boy she fell in love with years earlier. The boy whose life she fears she ruined.
When a bombing is reported in the city where they first met, Clara is pulled back to a place she tries not to remember and the first love she could never forget. Searching for Benjamin, Clara is forced to confront the events that tore them apart. But is it too late to put right what went wrong?
Across the miles and spanning decades, Charlotte Rixon's The One That Got Away is a sweeping, romantic story about growing up, growing apart, the people who first steal our hearts, and the surprising, winding roads that love can take us on.
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A letter to readers
Dear Reader,
Perhaps it was the ennui of lockdown, or a recent milestone birthday, but in 2021 I found myself thinking more and more about our early romantic relationships, and how they shape our lives. Suddenly, the character of Clara came to me: a woman my age who couldn’t move past her first great love. Why not? What had happened in her first relationship that had scarred her so immeasurably? I was fascinated by her, and her story, and gradually, she came to life.
I have a lot in common with Clara. I was an insecure teenager; I didn’t have the best time at university. I’d gone from being a big fish in a tiny pond (a very small secondary school) to being utterly lost at one of the biggest universities in the country. While I was there, I fell in love more intensely than I could have imagined possible. When university ended, we split up. My heart was broken. I remember those feelings so clearly; the pain that felt as though it might consume me, the feeling that I couldn’t live without him, because he was everything to me.
These growing pains are something we all go through. What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger, but it still hurts like hell.
Before we fall in love for the first time, we are ‘baggage-free’: open and trusting. Afterwards, whether we realise it or not, we are surrounded by invisible railings that were forged in the fire of our heartbreak.
For some people, the break-up fire burns more intensely than others. For these people, the railings are higher.
I wanted to examine the impact on two flawed, but very real people, when their first great love story ends in immense tragedy. How did this affect them? What impact did it have on the rest of their lives, and the lives of those around them? And most importantly of all, is there a way they can move on?
Looking back, I feel a great affection for 21-year-old me, who was so hard on herself, who thought she had ruined her own life. In The One That Got Away, Clara makes a lot of mistakes. I did too. I forgive her, and I forgive me.
As I’ve grown older, I’ve come to value a different kind of love. Your last love: one that is equally fascinating and special. But I will always look back on my first love with immense fondness. I hope you do too, and I hope you’ll be moved by Clara and Benjamin’s story.
Happy reading,
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